So like I said...

That I was going to talk about how I had deviated from the original topic of this blog/journal/witness to myself......

Yes, well....I originally started this with the intention of documenting how I was going to take myself to a simple 5K. But since then I have decided that my life is just more complex and there is more to it than that. I have alot of other things on my mind. It's not that I think a 5K is unimportant, I just think it's more of a topping or accessory.

I have decided that I am going to focus on well, "myself", of course - but having said that, "myself" is more than a 5K. "Myself" is a mom, daughter, wife, sister, friend, teacher, child of God, humanist, intuit and a few others and not necessarily in that order. If I am going to write about me then it has to be about more than a 5K for crying out loud. AND, when I do that 5K, it will probably be a footnote, not a thesis.

I have many roles and ultimately feel my purpose is to love others in all those roles. I know we all have a commission and so I have to try and be the best I can be while fulfilling that. I think that is what it is all about. The problem, is how hard I struggle with being my best and sticking to my commission.

I love Erma Bombeck and her wisdom is usually spot-on. This is one of my favorites:
"When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me'."
That's my goal. My real one.

I also remember that C.S. Lewis (my favorite <3) summed it up best when he said, "You don't have a soul, you are a soul. You have a body."  I know what my soul is supposed to do and I have to be about the business of doing it. I have to pull myself off the proverbial couch to my soul's purpose.

This is my journey.